SURRENDER!!

I hate the word "surrender".  I equate it with personal failure.
I give up too often on things like health goals, projects and doing things for other people. Surrender to me means not meeting the goals I've set for myself, realistic of not. I punish myself for that kind of surrender.

What I'm curious about is a different kind of surrender.
The kind of surrender I want to practice is that of "ceasing resistance".
It's a way to allow good to come right smack dab in the middle of 
things being the way you hate, don't want, can't stand, won't tolerate.
In that moment comes the time to breathe deep and allow "What is" to be.
Most religions promise peace and joy in that kind of surrender.

I'm going to give it a try.  

I see it as giving up, not giving in.
It means, "cease resistance".